When we are trying, we are not being.

Sometimes the pursuit of the thing that we think we are meant for and the thing that would lead us to our greatest life actually takes us even further from that life.

Why?

Because the pursuit is driven by a conditioned/unhealed part of us trying to make up for some sort of lack that we feel is within ourselves. This prevents us from simply being and allowing the Universe to bring the answers and opportunities to us. It clouds our judgment and makes us believe the answer is outside of us.

This is not an excuse to be “lazy” and sit around eating bon bon’s waiting for the Universe to plop down that best life on our laps (though sitting around eating bon bon’s is definitely part of my best life). It is simply a reminder that maybe things don’t have to be so hard and maybe we are the only ones making it so hard. To note – I’m not saying that we sit around and wait for the Universe to give us answers to the things that are so much bigger than us like wars, racism, economic/class/social issues, etc. I’m talking about what we are each seeking to pursue and create in this life. If we just be, the answers may simply present themselves to us.

To my friend, a goal is exciting, something to look forward to, something to happily cross off the list.

To me, a goal is an indication of what I am lacking, a cringeworthy reminder of how far I have to go.

Multiple truths exist. While my POV on goals may feel unmovable, I know I get to choose which of the two I want to land in and it’s up to me to work towards it.

Now that’s a worthy goal.

How many times do we need to ask for permission to realize we are the only ones stopping ourselves?

Sometimes, a part of me wants to hear the “no” to have an excuse.

Sometimes, a part of me wants someone else to take on the burden asking at all.

Sometimes, a part of me wants to hear “yes” to feel that my desires are valid.

I really like cleaning when things are dirty.

But does it make more sense to clean regularly instead of triaging the living/dining/bath room when it is visibly dirty?

I really want to be the person who cleans 10 minutes a day vs. the person who spends hours cleaning on a weekend but can I actually become that person?

On the other side of “I really like cleaning when things are dirty” is I really don’t see the point in cleaning when things aren’t dirty.

Alignment is a word overused but it remains something important to many people I speak to. It is likely that you are like me and are seeking alignment.

And how do people seek alignment? They quit jobs, move to new towns, change their wardrobe and so on.

In conversation with a friend, she shared that perhaps it was time for me to make a certain change to my life because it was obviously that this part of my life wasn’t serving me. And after thinking about it, I agreed with her. However, I told her that I can’t make that change right now.

In reading the Power of Integrity last year, I saw that this one aspect of my life is the single greatest component to be out of alignment, out of integrity, with the life I seek.

So yeah, it sucks, but it’s not always possible for all of the parts of our lives to be in 100% alignment.

Perfect alignment is a myth and a dangerous one to be putting out there as attainable and reasonable.

I shared with my friend that while this one part of my life is not in alignment with me, I am greatly aligned to my life because internally, I am aligned. I know what I stand for, I have prioritized what’s important to me and while I complain, I also am in integrity and aligned with my life at the moment.