I feel beyond fortunate to be bi-cultural – to live in and experience what is amazing about Western culture but also to be have grown up in a household where we were taught the values and language of Chinese culture. But being bi-cultural, especially a bi-cultural mom, is also difficult and sad some days.
It was the Mid-Autumn Festival today and I completely forgot about it! Amidst the work day, school day and seemingly never-ending home renovation, the holiday slipped my mind. I feel a need to grasp onto my Chinese heritage not only for me but for my children. There is such beauty in seeing another way of approaching holidays, nature and life in general. I want to offer them as much of that viewpoint as possible.
And today, I feel a bit of failure in losing this opportunity to share the holiday with them.
Lately, the to-do’s, should-do’s and have-to’s of my life have engulfed me and spit me back out, disheveled and disoriented trying to make sense of what day and time it is. All I can do is pull myself back up, remind myself I am doing the best I can and to keep going (or in Chinese – add oil!).