Near the start of each year, I choose a word, kind of like a theme, that guides me through the year. My word for 2021 has been “play.” While I have tried to incorporate more play into my day – playing video games with my husband and playing with the kids (this one has been especially hard!), I came to a realization in the summer that my word wasn’t a prompt to play in the traditional sense.
My annual words have a magical way of giving me exactly what I need.
I realized that the word “play” was not a reminder for ME to play games or pretend kitchen/restaurant/school/etc. but a prompt to allow my inner child to play.
You see, we suffer all sorts of wounds from our childhood, and we carry them with us today in the form of beliefs, fears and doubts. These beliefs, fears and doubts held by our inner child keep us in survival mode. We get so focused on our basic needs of survival (hello Maslow’s hierarchy), on repeating patterns of trauma and fighting, flight-ing, freezing or fawning when we get triggered that it can be really hard to get to the thriving part of living.
Throughout this year, I have done a lot of inner child healing through self-work and with coaches to move past those triggers (NOTE – I am have a lot more to go!). This has allowed the little girl in me to go about her way and play while adult me can take over and do the whole “adulting” thing. Little Lisa is no longer at the keyboard when I log into my credit card account. Working with a money coach has cleared the anxiety I used to feel every time I started typing my login information.
What has been really cool is I have been able to do this for myself. Upon feeling triggered, I have been able to identify the belief that is flaring and release it by getting into a meditative state, talking to Little Lisa, and clearing the belief or fear that make me feel triggered.
As I dive more and more into healing this little part of me, I get more and more excited. Our potential is like a hot air balloon, and those beliefs, fears and doubts are like ropes tethering us to the ground. I can feel ropes unknotting and releasing their hold. While that happens, the hot air balloon can rock or shake but I have faith that I’ll be able to disconnect enough of those ropes to let myself fly.
A daily practice challenges the person who creates on “inspiration.” We have to mother everyday, and ultimately, it is the daily grind that gives us perspective, clarity and the “high’s” of motherhood. I am exploring if the same happens when I write everyday on the topics that normally light me up – motherhood, self-development, healing and creating. Sign up here to receive those thought nuggets in your inbox on the daily.