I have always had a hard time deciding and claiming what I want. This ranges from “little” things like what donut to choose at the donut shop to “big” things like a salary range I’d like my job to have.
I didn’t have role models growing up who staked a claim for what they wanted. They were all immigrants who were getting by with what they had. Survival was the goal and their children (my generation) was the focus. Because (of those very good reasons) I didn’t have that exposure, and I never got to learn and practice how to declare what I want.
This is not a defect. This is a tremendous growth opportunity for me. The foundational reasons why I can’t decide and claim what I desire can be unlearned, and then I can learn how to by finding others who can model it for me and practicing.
I write everyday because it allows me to voice what is at the surface. Once that is out of my head, I can dig in another layer deeper. My daily writing practice has been my greatest exploration of self and humanity. Sign up here to receive these thought nuggets in your inbox on the daily.